2003-08-15T12:42:00.000-07:00

*Before you read this I'd advise you to read the other blog first.

Well, I know I said I wouldn’t come back ever! But I knew I had to go over more on a few things. I think I should a bit about myself. You might think that talking about all these morals in life make me a good person myself. But not necessarily, you see I’m a very very different person! I know I talk about being a good person and sometimes in my life it’s hard.

Here’s a little about my everyday life: Well, every morning I’m usually forced out of bed, which can start some arguing. I know I should maybe start sleeping earlier but that’s hard too! Anyways my everyday life has to include, with no exception, argument. Me and my family never have one day where we don’t argue. Its hard living in a life where all you can hear is screaming from you family and from yourself. I don’t seem to follow my own rules but I know they’re what I should be doing. I said I should be patient with my parents and often I’m not. I’m not that patient at all but I know it’s important that I become that way. Being patient is one of the most important things in a relationship, including understanding and love. Well, here’s one thing you don’t really expect from a girl who talks about being a good person, I do scream at my parents once in a while. I feel so much anger inside and that’s where patience should come in. I’ve obviously said things that I don’t mean and things that only I can understand. But even I get angry at my parents they seem to understand. What I mean is, they don’t hold a grudge, and they practically forget that we argued. Once in a while they’ll say that I have to learn to become a better person and that arguing with parents we all should respect is wrong. I know it is but I seem to do it anyways! And I have to say that I’m disgusted in myself when I do that and I know that I’m not only hurting myself but my parents or even my siblings. I’ve asked God each and everyday to help me and give me the strength to fight over the anger. I know that each day he has given me strength which I have to find inside myself. Finding it in yourself makes you even stronger than you’ll be when you find it. I haven’t found it yet but I’m still searching, I’m never giving up, I have hope.

Now our siblings! We all use to or still are saying the ‘I hate you’ term. I’ve sad it myself and I’m always feeling regretful about it. Again I know it’s not the best thing to do but I do it anyways but why? It definitely has to do with the control you have on your life. You have to practice that control to master it. It’s hard to control yourself but you know it’s good for you. You have to take steps; don’t just run up and down the stairs, you can fall! You have to really find that inner self, to calm down. I know it’s sounding like one of those inner peace people but as corny as you think they might be, they can be helpful.

Now at school I’m a nice girl, I’m always the one that doesn’t want to get into trouble. A very different me away from home. I’m two different people and I don’t do it on purpose. It’s hard to describe why I’m different. I get confused about it myself. My friends at school don’t believe I’m an angry person and my parents think that I’m getting my ‘anger’ from school! I don’t know how I got that way; I guess I’m really different. As you can see my life doesn’t exactly seem the way you probably thought it would be.

If you’re wondering why I’m not giving out advice on relationships, it’s because I haven’t experienced my own. I don’t want to be giving out false advice or anything. So I’ll stay away from that till that day comes!

Well, I might just once in a while come back but for now I have to stop writing really long blogs! God bless and keeps safe! Don’t forget to do what’s right! [as corny as that sounds but it’s right!]

2003-08-14T19:15:00.000-07:00

Hello, I'm here to tell the people out there how I feel about life and how you can help change your lives or even help others change theirs. I don’t intend on telling anyone who I am, only because the few things I’m about to share will already tell you a lot about me.

First of all, unlike a lot of people who share their story, I haven't experienced my life changing moment yet. This is why I believe my point of view on many things will be very different. Second of all I'm no Oprah or Dr. Phil, and the reason I decided to do this was because of all the people who believe that life isn't important. Believe me I have no idea what will people think of this page. I have a strong feeling about doing this, whether not anyone will see it. I will just blurt out what I feel or am thinking at the moment.This is really based on my life and even though it seems like a very long page my life story is longer. I’m probably going to jump from one topic to another. It’s like a puzzle; once you put it together it’ll make sense.

It’s not easy just sharing your feelings to other people and this goes for many people. In my opinion they think that they might say something wrong or something that sounds wrong. Then the people who have heard you say it will take in those last few words. There’s no looking back. We all know we can’t change the past but we know we can change our future. With that thought we should really look inside and think about that.

Many teens in our days think about sex, drugs and parties. I’m a teen myself, and I absolutely do not understand why people do such things. But I’ve heard many of their stories. It’s always about living a bad life. They choose to do those things because they think their life has no meaning. Well, in my opinion it’s not life that’s ruining everything, it’s you. You control your life so then what ever you do affects your life. Instead of saying I hate my life maybe you should be saying I hate myself. But you shouldn’t be saying that either. Only hating yourself more creates this wall between good and bad. You know that life is a gift and you shouldn’t treat it like garbage. But we totally ignore that, but why? I have my own outlook on things and I think that people really start having problems when they’re still young. Just the other day I was walking at a park and I spotted to kids, about 10 years old smoking. As soon as they saw me and my aunt they ran away. I was obviously shocked, I started to laugh, why would they do that?

Well, it could be their parents right? We could go to parents everywhere and tell them what they’re children are doing. But then again the parents won’t seem too happy about what we would be telling them. They’re probably doing drugs themselves and letting their kids do what they like. Those kind of parents are usually also in need of help. They’d probably argue and say that their kids are none of our business. But their kids could affect ours; in society today experimenting with everything is a daily obsession. Even I would like to see how it feels like to do this and to do that. But I know better than to waste my life trying to hurt myself. Parents all around should set a great example for their kids. But if they’re not ready to have any why have kids in the first place. Well, it could have been an “accident”; we know accidents of all kinds happen at least a few times a day. But we should really start being responsible about what we do. We should think before we act and about what we say.

My parents aren’t perfect. I try my best to understand them as much as possible. We all know one thing about them and it’s that they care and they don’t want us getting hurt. That can lead your parents to get overprotective. It’s hard to have parents like that but you really just have to talk to them whether not they want to talk to you. If there is a problem and they don’t seem to want to speak to you it’s because they’re denying themselves, which we all do. But it doesn’t matter you have talk to them, you have tell them how you feel. But swearing won’t exactly do, no one ever means it. People swear when they’re angry and they just need let their anger out. You never hear people swear in a good way. Anyways talking to your parents is one of the best solutions, if your scared don’t be. You know you’re doing something right by talking to them. Sure they might scream at you and say things that they don’t mean but you really have to be confident and believe that you can really get to them, be honest. Same goes for adults who try to talk to their children; sometimes it’s harder for younger children. They like to hold tantrums but you have to let them cry it all out, till there’s nothing left. You have to be calm and patient. Many children and teens don’t agree but as a teen myself I believe that discipline is a priority. I myself do not think it’s the best thing to do but you have to know what’s coming ahead if you continue to do nasty things. You have to be understanding about why parents or children do such things. Understanding it more instead of pushing the problem away can solve the situation.

Now my friends are great people but some of them go their own ways. I don’t really think I have a best friend, I sort of feel alone. I’m in high school and things change. Your friends change, it could be a bad or good thing but you have to be understanding, honest and patient once again. Friends come to each other for advice because we all know our friends and ourselves can make bad decisions once in a while. Do what you believe is right, not what you think would be good for you but for your friend. In friendship you might find jealousy and other qualities friendship should not contain. If a lot of this happens maybe your friendship isn’t strong, you have to make it strong. Some so called friends also lie. Which has happened to me, it hurts a lot and I really can’t trust that person anymore. Some people try too hard to fit in and lie about themselves. This totally ruins that persons plan into fitting in. It just gets them farther away, every time someone lies we find out 98% of the time. Denying won’t do well either, you’ll feel very ashamed after you’ve denied yourself. Telling the truth can really build and repair a friendship. And never ever feel alone, even if you’re the only one in a room, don’t! Because your not, it’s not like that today is the only chance to meet a friend because you have your whole life ahead of you…if you don’t decide to waste it.

This brings me to the whole popularity issue and peer pressure. We hear many people talk about it all of the time! But sometimes it just doesn’t get through people. Truly if they can only see what they’re doing to themselves. I’m sure that they will try to stop the pressure coming there way. Popularity is always involved with peer pressure. You have to drink beer to be our friend…etc. But really if that’s what they’re going to make you do, then they won’t really be good friends to hang out with. But if you’re just in it for the popularity then you wouldn’t really be a good person yourself. You can make yourself a better person just staying away from those kinds of people. Again people who usually fall into peer pressure are the people who seem to think they have nothing else to do with life. Well, here’s an idea how about live! You never know what the future holds for you, you could have been a star if you hadn’t taken that smoke. You could have been wealthy before you drank that second beer. You could have lived a life that you can look back at and say…I can’t believe what I went through, and I’m proud of it. You can turn a “nothing” into a something; you just have to be patient.

I myself feel as if I won’t be able to do anything in life but I have hope. I just want to make a difference and I want my life to be more special then it already is. It feels better to be special than to feel ‘high’. I’ve often thought about what my destiny has to hold. I can’t wait to release whatever it holds someday. I’ve also thought about what I wanted to be, which is actually a few things. I want to be so many things and I can’t really decide which one I want to be. I’ve said I wanted to be an archaeologist; I wanted to find the worlds before us and experience a whole new era in life. I‘ve also said I wanted to be an astronomer/ astronaut; I wanted to experience the world beyond earth. I wanted to see the other great miracles of life. I also said I wanted to be a writer, I have so much to express and so much to tell. I guess I wanted to experience an adventure. Then something different came along, I said I wanted to become an actress. I asked myself, what has that got to do with seeking the world outside my window, experiencing new things, and I didn’t really know the answer. Till now. I understand that if I became an actress I would be able to experience and meet you people and characters I would play, I would be able to be everything I wanted to be, I would be able to give money to charities and help those less fortunate. Now that’s a true adventure. Whether not being an actress will give me publicity or not, I just want to help create movies that I hope will affect the audience. I thought about that a lot. I had a dream; a thought about how being an actress can help all kinds of troubled teens. What if being in a movie which taught about lessons in life help. What if before robbing a bank or drinking alcohol or smoking a cigarette you watched a movie. What if that scene helped someone change their life? What if it taught them a meaning in life? Well, that’s one reason why I was inspired to do this, because of a movie. If the effect it had on me will do the same to others then maybe we can really help.

I really don’t want people, whether they are children, teens or adults, to throw out a gift which they can use. A gift that can truly embrace and understand something they can experience and explore. Why waste such a great adventure or why destroy anothers? God gave us a life to live for as many years for a reason. It’s not just to go to school or to work, or to have problems, no one is perfect! He gave us a life to experience, to learn from, to prepare for the real life ahead, in heaven.

I am a dreamer and I believe life is special. Even thought I might make mistakes each day. You have to really believe in your dreams and understand them with all your heart, mind, and soul. And when you need help the most you can always look up the man upstairs, he’s never busy and he’ll always help you. He’s definitely helped me and he still is, I’m grateful for everything he has done for me.

Now, I would like to share a few quotes that inspired me; I hope it will inspire you too.

“Our past is our future”

“Everyday I find a piece of my future; I await to find the final piece someday”

“Without knowledge of what you did 2 seconds ago, you wouldn’t know what to do 2 seconds later”

“Thoughts are what dreams are made of”

“Life is like an antique, you don’t realize how valuable it is till its old”

“I don’t believe in God”…”That doesn’t matter, he believes in you”

“What is destiny you ask? When will you find it? Shall it be at the end of time? Or the beginning of the end? My answer to you is simple. The end, but truly there is no end without a beginning. So at the end, at death, you will determine your destiny. You will find that your destiny was your life. Truly if there is no life there is no destiny. You cannot determine what your destiny is till you live it”

They might be hard to understand but you can if you put it into your heart.

I’m no person you should ask for advice but if you need someone is willing to help then I ‘m here for you. Just email me and I’ll try to answer the as soon as possible. Your words are important to me because words are not only what you can say. [dream_inthe_skies@hotmail.com]

Thank you for visiting my page and hopefully I have helped in some way. Thank you once again. God Bless! and don't forget to dream!

By the way I'm not ever coming back to post again!